Mint condition.

Amidst the complexity of the situation and despite our distance, our hearts bonded not offering any attention on the hindrances fate has arraigned us. Why continue searching for someone else? Why hope on deceitful promises? Why wait for those who have left? When well in fact the person destined for you is right here, waiting for you to love him back.

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I have walked alone for too long. Taunting memories of pain, hatred and sadness engulfed my wretched heart for countless of days, torturing me, tormenting every sleepless nights, waking me with dried tears on my eyes.

As I stare blankly, I tried coming up with the sweetest letter I can give him. A letter that will voice out what I truly feel. Minutes passed, and yet all I can come up with is this:

“Everything I say is an understatement.”

It was then that I realized that no amount of sweet phrases, messages or thoughts can bring justice to what I truly feel for him… Every heart melting “I love you” can never dignify the love I am feeling right now…

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I used to fear love, have rejected every idea of falling in love again and be fooled by it once more. Spite the numerous of those that have tried to change how I perceived the infamous emotion, my heart still can’t escape the pain it felt from yesterday. Accepting someone anew was never an option. Even with only the idea brought back all the pain I’ve been through; stopping me from my tracks, refraining to giving anyone a chance. But when he came, I realized that it was not the love that I was afraid of. Rather I was afraid of getting hurt by the same reasons as before and lose the one I love.

I was not looking for love. My heart was still torn up when he found me, I could barely stand up. After a disastrous relationship I was not sure if I’m ready to fall in love once again. He came into my life unexpectedly. It came as a surprise which I tend not to give importance to at first. Who would have thought that the love I wished for have been looking for me too in Pampanga? He is different. He gave me reasons to believe, have faith on love, help me forget the past and make our own memories together. He didn’t help me pick up of what was left of my heart when we met; he gave me a new one instead. A new heart and a new love. Everything is new, as if it was my first time to love.

Ours was not love at first sight, rather a love that we deserve. Something we dreamt of every night, hoped for every waking moment, prayed and waited for when the others have failed. Every morning I always look forward to being with him again. The thought of him smiling is enough to brighten my day. I feel that with him I can be happy. I am happy, ^___^.

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Mayabang, mahangin, bolero; those were my first impressions. I was reluctant at first to reply to his message, but I still did. He was just another guy on the net aspiring to make friends with me. Others would ask for my ym account or number. But he gave me his. I used to ignore such proposals, but his method of catching my attention worked. And I was blithe to have responded!

I have casted my beliefs of love; I thought that for once the happiness that I am feeling now is consistent and will forever be with me. For happiness that comes with love always seem to disappear in time. In the end it becomes a vicious cycle of happiness and hurt however it seems that the hurting outweighs the happiness a hundred fold. It was then that I realized that I was in fact falling for someone and I was already longing for more…

Confusing as I may seem, indeed, I am beginning to like this feeling. That after years of being taunted by memories… Alas, here I am considering myself into something that has no assurances yet it leaves me hanging and engulfed in the overwhelming feeling he gave me.

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I thank you because you have opened my eyes as well as my heart. Awaken me into something less worrisome; less tears and more laughter. It is you who taught me how to love again after a painful heartache. It is you who made me realize that I can be happy once more. You saved me in more ways than I can imagine.

I missed this feeling; the care, happiness and the love. I thank you for making me remember. Loving me in ways I can only imagine. In spite of our four-hours-of-travel-distance, you never fail in making me feel the warmth of your love here. Pampanga and Laguna for us was never that far…

You are the highlight of my every day. Am I really being loved by you or was I floating high above the clouds?

With you I can be myself. Keep me hopeful for tomorrow. Show off to the rest of the world that this love will never fade. Thank you for loving me!

Finally, someone to call my own…

“I LOVE MY NIKKO!! I LOVE YOU FLABBY! >:D<”